I’ll just go ahead and say it. I hate the BAR exam. Yep. Hate. It.
I thought law school was bad, but the time between law school and the BAR exam is filled with studying, stress, anxiety, and frustration, and is far, far worse.
There is an insane amount of work that Joel has to do to get ready for the exam, and that leaves me to manage literally everything else. I know he has to do it, but I can’t help feeling like all I want to do is run away and disappear until the first of August when the exam is over.
I hate to be complain-y, but I’m just being honest. I’m completely overwhelmed with life right now. I’m teetering right on the edge of a breakdown. Just about every day.
Clara has started preschool, which is helpful to me. She’s also potty training, which is probably going about as well as can be expected, but is still stressful. She seems to really like school – every day they send home a little sheet telling me what they did and how she was. Every day they check the boxes beside: chatty, energetic, happy, cooperative, and friendly. Sounds pretty accurate.
Lucy is sweet as ever. She’s about to be mobile though, which I am totally not ready for. She can pretty much roll across the room in the blink of an eye if I put her down on the floor. She’s a wonderful baby – happy and quiet most of the time. Only fussing when she is tired or dirty. And she’ll fall asleep almost immediately if you put her head in your armpit and gently hold her arms down. Quirky, I know.
So, here we are in the middle of summer that doesn’t feel much like summer. I mean, it’s hot outside and all, but summer is supposed to be for fun and play and vacation. And we are having anything but that.
We are going to head to the beach for a few days soon, which will be nice. But Joel will still have to be studying, so I don’t know how much of a break it will really be. And after that, I am strongly considering going to my parents’ every weekend until the exam is over. My mom and I want to do things like pick peaches, blueberries, tomatoes, and cucumbers… and then can them, making pickles, jam, salsa, etc. I’ve wanted to do that for a while, so this seems like as good a reason as any to do it. The kids will love to spend time with Gigi and Grandad, and we’ll have a fun activity to keep us busy. Anyway, we’ll see. I’ve got to get out of here though.
I’m trying to make a list of things I want to do after the BAR is over. I plan on taking all kinds of classes and getting out of the house by myself some. I want to take a pottery wheel class again – I still have all the tools from the first time I took it. And I want to do some cooking/baking classes. Who wants to join me?