the news

30 Aug

We left Raleigh yesterday with high hopes for good news to come in the mail today, to reach us via a phone call from someone who would check our mail.  

Today, when the phone call came, it was not the news we had hoped for.  My heart sank.  

Joel didn’t pass the BAR.  

Those words don’t even seem to make sense in my head.  But that’s the cold hard truth.  He didn’t pass.

To say that I wasn’t prepared for this would be an understatement.  I was totally sure he  had passed.  But I can tell you this, he could not have worked any harder.  60 days is a short time to re-learn all the details of all those classes.  And he worked so hard every single day to learn it.  

Even though I’m having a hard time dealing with this, and even though I can’t see it, I know that the Lord is doing this for a specific reason.  I’ve seen it too many times before to deny that… things that we couldn’t possibly understand why they were happening, looking back it’s all so clearly the hand of God in our lives.  I know that this is the same thing happening again, and I won’t understand it for a while, but I’m sure one day we’ll be able to look back and see it clearly.  I’m clinging to that as hard as I can.

So we move on.  

Joel will request his scores and his essays back and then he’ll take them in to the lady who does bar stuff at Campbell.  She’ll help him figure out what to focus on, what to study, how to study, and maybe recommend a tutor to help him.  He’ll study again.  And in February, he’ll take the BAR again.  This time it won’t be so intense – he’ll have 6 months this time, which should mean he will be around more and able to help me more than he was in June and July.  Which is a good thing, because I don’t think we would survive two more months of that.  

So, here we go – bar exam round 2.  Lord help us.

One Response to “the news”

  1. danaenzor September 17, 2013 at 9:27 am #

    Sorry to hear this. 😦 I believe God consistently gives us more than we can handle, so that we learn to rely more on him. But it’s not too much for God to handle. Praying for you guys, love y’all.

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